I have had the desire to blog. My hope is I can organize some thoughts and look back at these times and see the progression I've made. Not that what I have to say is very important, or anyone might want to read it. But it's for me, no one else, just me. My life has been turned around in the last 4 months. Well, really I've been on a roller coaster ride for the last 2 years but particularly the last 4 months has changed me life completely. I have learned more about myself than I ever thought possible. Over the course of blogging, I just want to share what I'm thinking, feeling, and growing. I've experienced so much love and loss; each of which from different places that I had expected.
I'm constantly asking myself, what will make me happy? I've realized that it can't be a city, or a job, or a boy for that matter. (However, my nephew makes me pretty happy!) I was and still do try to find happiness in the wrong places. Happiness starts with me. I'm not proud of where I'm at in life; therefore it's hard to be happy with myself. So starting in the simplest place, everyday it's my choice to make good decisions that I'm proud of and choose to be happy. I try so hard to make things work out the way I want them to; that I never seem to ask myself the hard questions, like is this the right thing for me? Is this person the one I should be spending so much time with?
What I'm going to focus on:
1. Not being as stubborn as I am.
2. Be more selfish (I'll elaborate on this a different time)
3. Living in the moment.
4. Making good/healthy decisions.
5. Being thankful for what I have because I really have a lot.
I've heard people say, "in broken places is where you learn the most," honestly, I thought this statement was an excuse for weak people. I didn't think I needed to be "broken" to learn anything. I found out, I was wrong.
That's all, for now....
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